You’re in your element. You’ve heeded the call. You followed your gut. And it lead you here.
You call the shots, and it feels good.
It does feel good, doesn’t it?
Things once pinned to your vision board now manifest before your sparkling eyes. Your creative sources are plentiful. Your muse visits you more and more frequently, bestowing brilliance + grand ideas.
The future is ripe with potential.
Golden opportunities are a knockin’.
You are smack in the centre of your universe.
You are the force. The gravitational pull.
Then this: a familiar old sensation swoops in and every fibre of your body freezes in response.
Doubt. Fear. Insecurity. Resentment. The gang’s all here.
Your mental choir pipes up: ”I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t”.
They sing louder and louder, deafening your truth. And feeling defeated you join the melancholic chorus.
Why am I starting this conversation? Because I feel that insecurity. And I know you do too.
I’ve surrendered myself to self-doubt more times than I’d care to admit. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve allowed the wet blanket of fear to put out my inner flame. Resentment has seen me distort my passion and warp my way of thinking. You too?
Another reason I’m bringing this all-too-common feeling to light, is because I wholeheartedly believe, as Richard Bach puts it, that ”We best teach what we most need to learn”.
A kick-ass photographer might be quietly thinking ”Where the heck are my clients?” when in fact she spends a huge chunk of her time teaching people how to use their camera settings. Her calling is in the teaching.
I know many Personal Trainers wondering why their schedules aren’t packed full. The bedrock of their client relationships is the way they coach their clients to reframe how they approach exercise and their bodies. Their calling is in coaching.
The path is not as straight as society would have you believe.
A strong theme I’ve set for this year is writing.
I feel the urge to write under my skin, in my bones and swirling in the tips of my fingers. Everything in my background and career history would have you think the opposite.
By profession, I’m a nutritionist, trainer and group fitness coach. Honestly, I have absolutely no desire to tell you what to eat, when to eat it or how far you need to run to burn it off.
What I was best at?
Supporting women. Holding their hands as we uncovered how they had arrived at a point that made them feel so unlovable, depressed and uninspired. Sending random notes of inspiration. Keeping up with how they felt in all areas of their lives — because it’s all inter-connected, y’know? Backing off when they’d confess they’d starved themselves through the workday, knowing there was something bigger behind it. Coaxing out the belief systems fuelling their behaviour that made them feel like shit on every conceivable level.Gently showing them that the potential for who they wanted to be was inside them all along. Handing them back their power, which they had never really lost in the first place.
My real interest is digging in. I love relating to and getting to know people through their stories. We all have stories, and embedded in them are the shiny clues I need to guide you to establishing a sense of wellness. On your terms, of course. There, nestled in my love for people lies my passion:
Gentle Guidance and Giving.
How do I get your story out of you? By telling you mine.
I have stashed away journals bursting at the seams with rushed, hand written ideas. Post-it’s strewn everywhere. Books flagged, notes dashed across their pristine pages. Half written blog posts. A book out-line.
“My words are my weapons. Yours are too. And sometimes we use them to wage mental war. Usually when soaking in self-doubt or swimming in insecurity.”
With every ‘I can’t. I don’t. I won’t. I shouldn’t. I should’ve,’ we chip away at our self-esteem, peeling off our shine.
We honour other’s requests over our own. We buy into the notion that we don’t have enough time to do anything well. We think we’re unqualified. That somebody else will probably do it better anyway. That the amazingly happy and fulfilled kindergarten teacher wasted her time with that Art degree and major in literature. (It is not a straight line.) Our dreams are wrong because they don’t fall into the standard chronology of society.
We start believing we need a PhD in everything before we can do anything at all.
Here’s what I know to be true:
Your words will either transform or terrorise you.
The next time you find yourself in a current of comparison, try these on for size:
10 actionable steps to: dissolving self-doubt
1. Reframe the game — use your words for your greater good. Your mind believes everything you tell it, so pump yourself up by plastering positive sticky notes around your work space.
2. Drop expectations – when you do something purely to get something back you kill the magic. If you hoard your best ideas your creativity dries up. Being expectant keeps you stagnant. Giving freely makes you a channel for receiving bigger and better things.
3. Detach from the outcome. Your blog post might go viral. Your workshops could sell out. Your new book could bomb. Whatever. Cultivate a habit of creating. Creating and serving without prediction opens you up to more potential and possibility. Let it go.
4. Remind yourself that we’re all in the same lifeboat. Even the people you idolise have shitty days.
5. Switch off often. Make it a non-negotiable. Cull social media when you’re working. (Facebook addicts, try this handy app). Turn off your phone when you’re with clients. Go outside. Disconnect to reconnect.
6. Look yourself in the eye and ask yourself this:”What am I scared of?”
– Are you scared that success might be easier than you thought?
– Are you scared of the hustle?
– Are you scared of what it means to really put yourself out there?
– Are you scared of somebody reading your work and thinking you have no idea?
– Are you scared of feeling like a fraud?
– Are you scared that you’ll have everything you ever wanted and still feel empty?
Pinpoint your fear and its power diminishes.
7. Before you start anything, get back to the heart of it.
Why is this important?
How will you feel when you make it?
How will you feel if you bomb?
How will you feel if you never even try?
8. Understand that fear is just a feeling.
“Are you paralysed with fear? That’s a good sign. Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do. Remember one rule of thumb: the more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.” Steven Pressfield, The War of Art.
9. Meditate on what holds you back. Is it a person? Situation? Failure? Win?
Close your eyes. Hold whatever it is keeping your small in your mind’s eye. Notice your shoulders, drop them. Take 10 deep, cleansing breaths and with each breath imagine that person/situation/comment getting smaller until it is just a speck. Keep breathing until it disappears.
10. Change perspective.
If you normally work inside, grab a beach towel and lay on the grass outside.
Start the day by pumping your favourite song rather than checking emails.
Carve out a chunk of time and devote yourself to one task only.
My personal favourite, grab a pen and paper instead of plugging into the computer. It’s a much more liberating way to work.
Got your own little piece of wisdom to offer up?
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Big love to you, lion heart.x